Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Something beautiful....


Time goes so fast, somtimes.~SMH

So, I weighed in yesterday fearful of what the scale might say and was surprised to see that it didn't go up at all from my last weigh in way back in February. It encouraged me a little and also made me realize that the only way to lose this weight is by eating differently and exercising. If I don't do those 2 things, I will stay the same. Change won't come. But, if I do do things differently over time, things WILL change. I can get discouraged because once again I am further than what I had wanted to be. By this time, March, I had hoped to be down 20 lbs. It's only been 10. So, my goal of losing 50 by June is looking a bit off, but I am still going to try. Because I live overseas, I don't have the benefits of all those weight loss programs out there to do it; I am having to do it completely on my own. So, I am giving myself a little grace and thankful that I am down at least 10 and hopefully the scale will start showing the numbers dropping again. I am trying, but truly taking it a day at a time. It's taken 8 years to put it all on. I am realizing that in order for it to stay off, I need to do it slowly, make it a lifestyle change and I am OK with that at the end of the day as long as I am progressing and trying. I've worked out the last 2 days again and haven't had the nasty cough to deal with so I am hoping to take a shot at it again. I have goals, and I want to reach them. I want to feel what it feels like to be proud of myself and I want to feel what confidence feels like. In time....But it sure goes fast if I am not careful. This last month flew by and I didn't lose a pound. Every day counts, I don't have much time....